When Lord Arthur woke it was twelve
o'clock, and the mid-day sun was streaming through the ivory-silk curtains of
his room. He got up and looked out of the window. A dim haze of heat was
hanging over the great city, and the roofs of the houses were like dull silver.
In the flickering green of the square below some children were flitting about
like white butterflies, and the pavement was crowded with people on their way
to the Park. Never had life seemed lovelier to him, never had the things of
evil seemed more remote.
Then his valet brought him a cup of chocolate on a tray.
After he had drunk it, he drew aside a heavy portière of peach coloured plush, and passed
into the bathroom. The light stole softly from above, through thin slabs of
transparent onyx, and the water in the marble tank glimmered like a moonstone.
He plunged hastily in, till the cool ripples touched throat and hair, and then
dipped his head right under, as though he would have wiped away the stain of
some shameful memory. When he stepped out he felt almost at peace. The
exquisite physical conditions of the moment had dominated him, as indeed often
happens in the case of very finely-wrought natures, for the senses, like lire,
can purify as well as destroy.
After breakfast, he flung himself down on a divan, and lit a
cigarette. On the mantel-shelf, framed in dainty old brocade, stood a large
photograph of Sybil Merton, as he had seen her first at Lady Noel's ball. The
small, exquisitely-shaped head drooped slightly to one side, as though the
thin, reed-like throat could hardly bear the burden of so much beauty; the lips
were slightly parted, and seemed made for sweet music; and all the tender
purity of girlhood looked out in wonder from the dreaming eyes. With her soft,
clinging dress of crêpe-de-chine,
and her large leaf-shaped fan, she looked like one of those delicate little
figures men find in the olive-woods near Tanagra; and there was a touch of
Greek grace in her pose and attitude. Yet she was notpetite.
She was simply perfectly proportioned - a rare thing in an age when so many
women are either over life-size or insignificant.
Now as Lord Arthur looked at her, he was filled with the
terrible pity that is born of love. He felt that to marry her, with the doom of
murder hanging over his head, would be a betrayal like that of Judas, a sin
worse than any the Borgia had ever dreamed of. What happiness could there be
for them, when at any moment he might be called upon to carry out the awful
prophecy written in his hand? What manner of life would be theirs while Fate
still held this fearful fortune in the scales? The marriage must be postponed,
at all costs. Of this he was quite resolved. Ardently though he loved the girl,
and the mere touch of her fingers, when they sat together, made each nerve of
his body thrill with exquisite joy, he recognised none the less clearly where
his duty lay, and was fully conscious of the fact that he had no right to marry
until he had committed the murder. This done, he could stand before the altar
with Sybil Merton, and give his life into her hands without terror of
wrongdoing. This done, he could take her to his arms, knowing that she would
never have to blush for him, never have to hang her head in shame. But done it
must be first; and the sooner the better for both.
Many men in his position would have preferred the primrose
path of dalliance to the steep heights of duty; but Lord Arthur was too
conscientious to set pleasure above principle. There was more than mere passion
in his love; and Sybil was to him a symbol of all that is good and noble. For a
moment he had a natural repugnance against what he was asked to do, but it soon
passed away. His heart told him that it was not a sin, but a sacrifice; his
reason reminded him that there was no other course open. He had to choose
between living for himself and living for others, and terrible though the task
laid upon him undoubtedly was, yet he knew that he must not suffer selfishness
to triumph over love. Sooner or later
we are all called upon to decide on the
same issue - of us all, the same question is asked. To Lord Arthur it came
early in life - before his nature had been spoiled by the calculating cynicism
of middle- age, or his heart corroded by the shallow, fashionable egotism of
our day, and he felt no hesitation about doing his duty. Fortunately also, for
him, he was no mere dreamer, or idle dilettante. Had he been so, he would have
hesitated, like Hamlet, and let irresolution mar his purpose. But he was
essentially practical. Life to him meant action, rather than thought. He had
that rarest of all things, common sense.
The wild, turbid feelings of the previous night had by this
time completely passed away, and it was almost with a sense of shame that he
looked back upon his mad wanderings from street to street, his fierce emotional
agony. The very sincerity of his sufferings made them seem unreal to him now.
He wondered how he could have been so foolish as to rant and rave about the
inevitable. The only question that seemed to trouble him was, whom to make away
with; for he was not blind to the fact that murder, like the religions of the
Pagan world, requires a victim as well as a priest. Not being a genius, he had
no enemies, and indeed he felt that this was not the time for the gratification
of any personal pique or dislike, the mission in which he was engaged being one
of great and grave solemnity. He accordingly made out a list of his friends and
relatives on a sheet of notepaper, and after careful consideration, decided in favour
of Lady Clementina Beauchamp, a dear old lady who lived in Curzon Street, and
was his own second cousin by his mother's side. He had always been very fond of
Lady Clem, as every one called her, and as he was very wealthy himself, having
come into all Lord Rugby's property when he came of age, there was no
possibility of his deriving any vulgar monetary advantage by her death. In
fact, the more he thought over the matter, the more she seemed to him to be
just the right person, and, feeling that any delay would be unfair to Sybil, he
determined to make his arrangements at once.
The first thing to be done was, of course, to settle with
the cheiromantist; so he sat down at a small Sheraton writing-table that stood
near the window, drew a cheque for #105, payable to the order of Mr. Septimus
Podgers, and, enclosing it in an envelope, told his valet to take it to West
Moon Street. He then telephoned to the stables for his hansom, and dressed to
go out. As he was leaving the room, he looked back at Sybil Merton's
photograph, and swore that, come what may, he would never let her know what he
was doing for her sake, but would keep the secret of his self-sacrifice hidden
always in his heart.
On his way to the Buckingham, he stopped at a florist's, and
sent Sybil a beautiful basket of narcissi, with lovely white petals and staring
pheasants' eyes, and on arriving at the club, went straight to the library,
rang the bell, and ordered the waiter to bring him a lemon-and-soda, and a book
on Toxicology. He had fully decided that poison was the best means to adopt in
this troublesome business. Anything like personal violence was extremely
distasteful to him, and besides, he was very anxious not to murder Lady
Clementina in any way that might attract public attention, as he hated the idea
of being lionised at Lady Windermere's, or seeing his name figuring in the
paragraphs of vulgar society-newspapers. He had also to think of Sybil's father
and mother, who were rather old-fashioned people, and might possibly object to
the marriage if there was anything like a scandal, though he felt certain that
if he told them the whole facts of the case they would be the very first to
appreciate the motives that had actuated him. He had every reason, then, to
decide in favour of poison. It was safe, sure, and quiet, and did away with any
necessity for painful scenes, to which, like most Englishmen, he had a rooted
objection.
Of the science of poisons, however, he knew absolutely
nothing, and as the waiter seemed quite unable to find anything in the library
but Ruff's Guideand
Bailey's Magazine,
he examined the bookshelves himself, and finally came across a handsomely-bound
edition of the Pharmacopeia,
and a copy of Erskine's Toxicology,
edited by Sir Mathew Reid, the President of the Royal College of Physicians,
and one of the oldest members of the Buckingham, having been elected in mistake
for somebody else; a contretemps that so enraged the Committee, that
when the real man came up they black-balled him unanimously. Lord Arthur was a
good deal puzzled at the technical terms used in both books, and had begun to
regret that he had not paid more attention to his classics at Oxford, when in
the second volume of Erskine, he found a very complete account of the
properties of aconitine, written in fairly clear English. It seemed to him to
be exactly the poison he wanted. It was swift - indeed, almost immediate, in
its effect - perfectly painless, and when taken in the form of a gelatine
capsule, the mode recommended by Sir Mathew, not by any means unpalatable. He
accordingly made a note, upon his shirt-cuff of the amount necessary for a
fatal dose, put the books back in their places, and strolled up St. James's
Street, to Pestle and Humbey's, the great chemists. Mr. Pestle, who always
attended personally on the aristocracy, was a good deal surprised at the order,
and in a very deferential manner murmured something about a medical certificate
being necessary. However, as soon as Lord Arthur explained to him that it was
for a large Norwegian mastiff that he was obliged to get rid of, as it showed
signs of incipient rabies, and had already bitten the coachman twice in the
calf of the leg, he expressed himself as being perfectly satisfied,
complimented Lord Arthur on his wonderful knowledge of Toxicology, and had the
prescription made up immediately.
Lord Arthur put the capsule into a pretty little silver bonbonnière that he saw in a shop-window in Bond
Street, threw away Pestle and Humbey's ugly pill-box, and drove off at once to
Lady Clementina's.
`Well, monsieur le
mauvais sujet,' cried the old lady, as he entered the room, `why
haven't you been to see me all this time?'
`My dear Lady Clem, I never have a moment to myself,' said
Lord Arthur, smiling.
`I suppose you mean that you go about all day long with Miss
Sybil Merton, buying chiffons and talking nonsense? I cannot
understand why people make such a fuss about being married. In my day we never
dreamed of billing and cooing in public, or in private for that matter.
`I assure you I have not seen Sybil for twenty-four hours,
Lady Clem. As far as I can make out, she belongs entirely to her milliners.'
`Of course; that is the only reason you come to see an ugly
old woman like myself. I wonder you men don't take warning. On a fait des folies pour moi, and here
I am, a poor, rheumatic creature, with a false front and a bad temper. Why, if
it were not for dear Lady Jansen, who sends me all the worst French novels she
can find, I don't think I could get through the day. Doctors are no use at all,
except to get fees out of one. They can't even cure my heartburn.'
`I have brought you a cure for that, Lady Clem,' said Lord
Arthur gravely. `It is a wonderful thing, invented by an American.'
`I don't think I like American inventions, Arthur. I am
quite sure I don't. I read some American novels lately, and they were quite
nonsensical.'
`Oh, but there is no nonsense at all about this, Lady Clem!
I assure you it is a perfect cure. You must promise to try it;' and Lord Arthur
brought the little box out of his pocket, and handed it to her.
`Well, the box is charming, Arthur. Is it really a present?
That is very sweet of you. And is this the wonderful medicine? It looks like a bonbon. I'll take it at once.'
`Good heavens! Lady Clem,' cried Lord Arthur, catching hold
of her hand, `you mustn't do anything of the kind. It is a homoeopathic
medicine, and if you take it without having heartburn, it might do you no end
of harm. Wait till you have an attack, and take it then. You will be astonished
at the result.'
`I should like to take it now,' said Lady Clementina,
holding up to the light the little transparent capsule, with its floating
bubble of liquid aconitine. `I am sure it is delicious. The fact is that,
though I hate doctors, I love medicines. However, I'll keep it till my next
attack.'
`And when will that be?' asked Lord Arthur eagerly. `Will it
be soon?'
`I hope not for a week. I had a very bad time yesterday
morning with it. But one never knows.'
`You are sure to have one before the end of the month then,
Lady Clem?'
`I am afraid so. But how sympathetic
you are to-day, Arthur! Really, Sybil has done you a great deal of good. And
now you must run away, for I am dining with some very dull people, who won't
talk scandal, and I know that if I don't get my sleep now I shall never be able
to keep awake during dinner. Good- bye, Arthur, give my love to Sybil, and
thank you so much for the American medicine.'
`You won't forget to take it, Lady Clem, will you?' said
Lord Arthur, rising from his seat.
`Of course I won't, you silly boy. I think it is most kind
of you to think of me, and I shall write and tell you if I want any more.'
Lord Arthur left the house in high spirits, and with a
feeling of immense relief.
That night he had an interview with Sybil Merton. He told
her how he had been suddenly placed in a position of terrible difficulty, from
which neither honour nor duty would allow him to recede. He told her that the
marriage must be put off for the present, as until he had got rid of his
fearful entanglements, he was not a free man. He implored her to trust him, and
not to have any doubts about the future. Everything would come right, but
patience was necessary.
The scene took place in the conservatory of Mr. Merton's
house, in Park Lane, where Lord Arthur had dined as usual. Sybil had never
seemed more happy, and for a moment Lord Arthur had been tempted to play the
coward's part, to write to Lady Clementina for the pill, and to let the
marriage go on as if there was no such person as Mr. Podgers in the world. His
better nature, however, soon asserted itself, and even when Sybil flung herself
weeping into his arms, he did not falter. The beauty that stirred his senses
had touched his conscience also. He felt that to wreck so fair a life for the
sake of a few months' pleasure would be a wrong thing to do.
He stayed with Sybil till nearly midnight, comforting her
and being comforted in turn, and early the next morning he left for Venice,
after writing a manly, firm letter to Mr. Merton about the necessary
postponement of the marriage.
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